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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 15:40:36 GMT -5
Hello
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 15:42:13 GMT -5
Hi....... .....I'm kinda questioning myself....again.... Any ideas?
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Post by Jacob on Sept 15, 2015 15:44:11 GMT -5
That's kinda despair. Do you think you need a break?
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 15:47:20 GMT -5
.....I actually considered making a topic about that... I've consistently wondered if I'm just expecting too much of others. I keep getting upset when I wait for people to be here... and I question if they want me around or not, and if they honestly trust me...
When I think of leaving, I realize that I'd be blocked from a recovery cause I still have things to work out with others. I feel so attached to the people here, but it's driving me crazy. Leaving would leave unanswered questions that only they could answer....
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Post by Jacob on Sept 15, 2015 15:50:53 GMT -5
.....I actually considered making a topic about that... I've consistently wondered if I'm just expecting too much of others. I keep getting upset when I wait for people to be here... and I question if they want me around or not, and if they honestly trust me... When I think of leaving, I realize that I'd be blocked from a recovery cause I still have things to work out with others. I feel so attached to the people here, but it's driving me crazy. Leaving would leave unanswered questions that only they could answer.... Sometimes things can be delayed for a bit but the come back even better, this might sound odd btw... You should think of yourself first this time
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 15:55:28 GMT -5
...I know what you mean... I kind am thinking like that. If I left, sure, I'd get more acclimated to my own life without the people here...I'd stop being so upset when someone comments, and I realize they were there the whole time just leaving me on my own... But I'd never know why, and that would seriously haunt me. My questions would linger, to be brought up again.
I'd never know why I was ignored like that, what place I'd have, or what was going on. I'd just get into despair all over again once it repeats.
This wouldn't be the first time I'd left....
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Post by Jacob on Sept 15, 2015 15:59:24 GMT -5
...I know what you mean... I kind am thinking like that. If I left, sure, I'd get more acclimated to my own life without the people here...I'd stop being so upset when someone comments, and I realize they were there the whole time just leaving me on my own... But I'd never know why, and that would seriously haunt me. My questions would linger, to be brought up again. I'd never know why I was ignored like that, what place I'd have, or what was going on. I'd just get into despair all over again once it repeats. This wouldn't be the first time I'd left.... What happened the first time?
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:01:26 GMT -5
......I ended up kinda feeling ignored...the weight of people just seeming to not want me around got to me, and I spent a few days asking to be banned so I wouldn't just come back, and start despair all over again.
I got my request granted, and sorted things out...or so I thought....Now it's just repeating.
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Post by Jacob on Sept 15, 2015 16:07:30 GMT -5
......I ended up kinda feeling ignored...the weight of people just seeming to not want me around got to me, and I spent a few days asking to be banned so I wouldn't just come back, and start despair all over again. I got my request granted, and sorted things out...or so I thought....Now it's just repeating. Well, it's your future, you do what you want with it! Anything can change!
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:09:19 GMT -5
....Yeah... There's stuff I need to work out with others... Others just aren't here.... ...... Just consider this a moment...you leave....what do you come back to?
The same thing....that's what! Unless something is addressed, it doesn't change. That's one reason I feel more like I should stick it out to face my despair head on.
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:14:17 GMT -5
Hi
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:15:28 GMT -5
Umm... Could you please read the conversation that just happened Kat? I'd like your opinion on it...
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Post by Jacob on Sept 15, 2015 16:17:40 GMT -5
....Yeah... There's stuff I need to work out with others... Others just aren't here.... ...... Just consider this a moment...you leave....what do you come back to? The same thing....that's what! Unless something is addressed, it doesn't change. That's one reason I feel more like I should stick it out to face my despair head on. Your choice, just remember to do what you want. In fact, I think it's time for a quote! "Why live a life without doing what you want? That's just a recipe for a life of misery."
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:18:21 GMT -5
I read it..
I used to have that mentality and I got sad when people didn't respond whenever I posted
When I realized that real life happens and people can't always be on all the time I decided to get over it.. That's just how things are.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:18:35 GMT -5
Heh.... Well... I WANT to be around my friends... I want to be part of their lives.... I want them a part of mine.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:21:42 GMT -5
I read it.. I used to have that mentality and I got sad when people didn't respond whenever I posted When I realized that real life happens and people can't always be on all the time I decided to get over it.. That's just how things are. It's more than that though..... ........ Yes. People don't always post, but they don't have to ignore me when I send something aimed at them... ............................ I'll stop now... I don't know if I have the words to properly express myself to you. ...... I think, it'll take a bit of explaining I don't know how to do.
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:26:19 GMT -5
Hmm..
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:28:20 GMT -5
Well.... I think I'll just wait for Twili to show.. ........
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:31:27 GMT -5
Are you going to be ok?
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:37:10 GMT -5
...I should be once I sort things out with him. ........ I have to wonder if he even realizes how frustrating it is not knowing if he's there or not... I mean, he could be here now, just staying silent, and I'd know nothing! ..... Kinda like what I suspect happened last night...
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:39:26 GMT -5
He's not on right now..
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:41:55 GMT -5
Oh.... Well... I never do know these things...
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:45:59 GMT -5
Do you want him to stop being invisible?
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2015 16:51:47 GMT -5
I can't honestly ask that.
...He had reason to go invisible, and to really ask that would be taking something away from him.
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Post by Kat on Sept 15, 2015 16:52:21 GMT -5
What was his reason?
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